I know part of it is the stress of going away for 8 days and everything that involves, and I am truely excited to be going… but at the same time I am dreading it. I hate that I have to be going alone but I don’t say so because I am being supportive of The Mr.the path he wants to be following. .. the one that we are all following with him…for him. I know in my heart that he will miss us just as terribly as we miss him and I will do my best to keep the kids occupied so that they won’t dwell on it.. but then it will get quiet and we will be drifting off to sleep and I will get sad that I am in bed alone. I will hear my BIL snoring in the next room and miss having The Mr.snoring beside me.

This trip is very important to me. Not only because I will be sharing a large piece of my childhood with my kids, but because I am doing it for me as well as them. Yes there is is I am actually doing something for me for a change. That is now always easy for me. I am not giving up on something I want because of The Mr’s path. Not that he would ever ask me to do so. He would never make me give this up again, like he had to last year. But the trip last year fell the week we passed papers for the business loan to buy the store. I will be home in time to celebrate our 1st anniversary. I made sure of that! 

I am also a huge disorganized mess right now. I have stuff here there and everywhere. I refined my lists tonight and I will be working on them tomorrow… it is the only full day I will have to do so since Friday was taken away from me. I was told I didn’t need two day anyway… so I will be doing what I need to do for going away, the rest will either wait until I get back or be taken care of by the one who told me I didn’t need two days heh!

And I am trying not to freak out about being away from the store for 8 whole days. Not that The Mr.couldn’t survive without me.. but I am just a little concerned about him and his ideas without me there to say you have to wait until that deposit clears before spending that money… ugh I can’t think about all that now!

Now is for relaxing.. tomorrow is for planning and preparing. Sunday is for 2 hour and 45 minutes of driving.

 

The Mr.and I went out to see Bourne Ultimatum last night. Behind us was one of “those guys” The ones bad jokes and epitome’s are made of. He took several two way calls with the “beep beep” and everything. Never once even pretended to whisper. Of course he also talked to the screen had to do that… Then he and his female companion chatted, again no whisper. Then he must have gotten some popcorn or something stuck in his throat cuz the then had to do that hack where he is bringing everything he can up and make me gag. I thought The Mr.was going to go over the row at him. I was able to tune them out for the most part. Helps that the movie was one of the better I have seen in a long while.

So there are just 5 or so days left until I leave. I have a ton to do and was listing what I needed to do tonight. The Mr.told me that since he was going to his kick boxing class that I should just chill and “do my blog stuff”. So I am doing a little of both. I have been poking around in the Plugin Library and there are a few I would like to try. After I have a Hunka Chunka PB Fudge Cone. I haven’t treated myself in a while so I am gonna dig in to some of that… and if I do it in a cone, I won’t eat as much as I could.. Actually just give me a carton and a spoon heh! I love the stuff it is my flavorite!

I heard a song today. It was on a bands myspace page. I loved it and listened over and over again. It is not available for download and hasn’t been released yet. The teases!! I have it bookmarked though so I can listen some more. I should be sick of it by the time it is available for purchase. Heh!

Speaking of music… must have the ipod filled with music for the trip Sunday. Got some new stuff to add to it too. That should thrill the kids to no end heh!

I really should throw The Karate Kid into the tub. It is getting late and soon I won’t want to do anything….. oops too late

 

I say ... and you think ... ?

1. Voices :: Inside my head
2. Have to :: Have it
3. Machine :: La -
4. Seventh grade :: The Locker Partner From Hell
5. Beach :: Blanket Bingo
6. Roommate :: Sharing is caring
7. Cyclone :: My son.. or the shittiest vacuum I ever owned
8. Theater :: Tickets
9. Pregnant :: Bite your tongue!!
10. Phoebe :: Cates