I am so tired of money things...I have never been a shopper, but I enjoy buying for others. At least I did… now it just makes me want to hurl.

Got four birthdays this month… one taken care of the second and third are a double dose… can’t attend the party because of SIL2B’s shower. I have no idea what to get them… and no money to get anything with. I would just give them cash but I know for a fact that SILW/MS will keep it. She has said as much to me at past parties.

Got the bridal shower next Sunday. I gave them their wedding gift months ago when there was an accident in front of my parents house and damage done to both SIL2B’s car and my brothers car. They were upset about having to dig into their wedding fund for this. Turned out they didn’t. Also I had no idea there were plans for big showers/bachelor parties etc. The Mr.spent $100 last weekend on the bachelor festivities, that ended lamely because baby bro was afraid SIL2B would be upset. Ugh! I grabbed a couple of cheap gifts for the shower so there was something from me and The Drama Queen to open… but even that was money I don’t have to spend

Now I gotta come up with $35 for a personal finance course The Mr.has to take because he is filing bankruptcy… a course that has to be taken within 45 days of the meeting which is tomorrow… hopefully they will take it after or he will have to refile because he hasn’t done it yet. Pisses me off a bit but I am not going to get into that.

Course the kids are wanting this that and the other thing… and I can’t do it… and I am wondering where the money for school clothes is going to come from.

If only Calgon take me away actually worked… course I can’t afford Calgon, so the point is moot. Heh!

 

Here’s how my week has gone so far… and what I have to look forward to…

Tuesday night we went up the street to see fireworks! We had a great spot right underneath them. The Karate Kid giggled the whole time.

Yesterday the kids went up the street to the candy store and came home with their cousin in tow. Apparently he was driving by with his father and dad ditched him. At least that is the story he gave. SILW/MS didn’t seem to thrilled about it. Gave me crap on the phone. I nearly hung up on her. Bitch! Wasn’t my idea for your kid to come over here so stick it!

Tonight we are hoping to get up to Plymouth to see the fireworks there. Probably also show The Karate Kid around there (The Rock and Mayflower replica) since he hasn’t been since he was small. Really want to play it by ear because our plans aways manage to go awry some how.

My second youngest brother is planning my baby brother’s bachelor party for tomorrow… and now my sister and BIL are making a special trip down for it, so I will get to hang out with my sis tomorrow… yay!

Small bumps along the way. Only thing that makes me want to move from this town is having SILW/MS living less than a mile away. Ugh!

 

“Let me ‘splain” (pause) “No, there is too much. Let me sum up.”

Don’t have much enthusiasm for writing lately. Mostly because it will all just come out as whiny poor me crap.

I had a minor meltdown the other night and scared my children. I managed to squelch it before it got too bad, but now I feel it lingering at the edges.

Can’t sleep.. tired...discouraged...disgusted...frustrated...fed up.

Blah… Just blah…